Well – it is time – time to Blog again.
I don’t have anything particularly witty to say… just random streams of thought. I would say this is allowed, due to the Blog title. It’s my marvel in the mundane – therefore my rules or lack of rules apply.
I find myself feeling so lost of late; floating loosely from one piece of life to another. I can’t make sense of it. The past continues to rear it’s oddly shaped head reminding me, in shadows and parallels, that things are much different than I imagined. The present reminds me there is joy and love and goodness in my life, in sharp contrast to the sadness, desperation and hopelessness in that of others. As for the future – I cannot tell. There is so much unknown that the traces of hope seem but wisps of next-to-nothingness. There is nothing to cling to other than the resolute undercurrent of trust in the One who holds all together, including the itty-bitty spot on the time line of everything that is the totality of my life.
When life seems vapid and futile, I console myself with this truth- it often does to those of us who want more out of life. If we were never dissatisfied with surface living, there would be nothing to move us deeper, broader, beyond.
you are grace-filled and lovely. I love your honesty and the way you love your family well and with Jesus-love and Spirit-filled perseverance. Thank you for your commitment to reality and Truth. praying for you sister.